Restarted my book at the beginning of 2nd term(semester, whatever.) posted the prologue and chapter 40. I'm sitll my usualy out of touch with reality, daydreaming, want to die self, exceot to me I seem to occasionally be in cheerier moods..I guess what's bothering me most is finacial problems at home, plus being bugged to get ym college stuff done when all I want to go for the first year after high school is work to earn college money...I admit, I do want to do, bt stop pushing me to go..Then my job at FCS seems to be flying down the craphole..I haven't had a working day since December 27, and I NEED this job..well pallication to jobs here I come..that's all for now, guess I wrote this journal to say 'Hey I'm alive!'